I couldn’t live with it, and I couldn’t live without it.
This about sums it up. Alcohol was making it harder and harder to live my life and every time I tried to quit, I couldn’t stay quit. I wasn’t happy, wasn’t able to do many of the things I used to enjoy and just plain wasn’t able to stay stopped. I tried all the different ways the real alcoholic uses to moderate drinking, but none of it worked. That’s the point where I was ready to take the first step.